Maj. Amy Hammond-Jackson

I am seriously considering worshipping the Egyptian Goddess Hathor.  Not because she was a Ga'ould but because she was an Egyptian Goddess before the Ga'ould took over the persona of the Egyptian gods.  I think it is important for us as Wiccans to distinguish between the Gods and the Ga'oulds.  To keep thinking of the Ga'oulds as the Egyptian Gods is to give them the power that they have taken from the Human race.  So in order to take that power from them we must continue to seek out the divine in the form of the Egyptian Gods and refuse to acknowledge the Ga'oulds as any kind of divinity.  I expected Daniel to give me a look of confusion and distress.  Sometimes its hard for him, for all of us to distringuish between the Ga'oulds and the Egyptian gods.  I think more often than not we relate the Egyptian Gods to the Ga'oulds.  So its time we laid the Ga'oulds to rest and bring back the Egyptian Gods restoring them to the divine position.

Okay so Ive been having these dreams. For some reason Ive been dreaming about seeing the X-Mansion engulfed in flames.  Apparently so have other slayers and witches.  I dont really know what this means.  I suppose it could be an unconscious fear.  Or possibly an over active set of imaginations.  I don't know anymore.  Something seems to be wrong with me lately.  I have been out of it all day.  Peter was trying talk to me about the security systems we've been working to reset at the X-Mansion and I didnt hear a word he said.  It sounded like he was speaking to me in Russian but I know it was English.  I dont know what my deal was today.  I just couldnt focus.  I am kind of reluctant however to talk to any of the physicians around me.  Jess is just psychotic.  Hank will ask me what project ive been over working myself on.  Janet and Kristen will give me that maternal tongue thing and Wendy and Jean will try to read me.  So Im pretty much surrounded by pushy Doctors.  Help.  The only Doctors I can trust are a Theoretical Astrophysicist and an Archeologist.  Unfortunately neither of them can help me with a medical problem.  (Though they both give me physicals regularly.) I think I need to take time tonight to meditate. I havent done that in a while and I think im getting too chaotic.  I dont know.  I think some quality time with Daniel will help too. He and I havent had much time alone lately so Im hoping I can pull him away from whatever papers he needs to look at and what ever translations the SGC has him doing.  

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Running LateA police officer in a small town stopped a motorist who was speeding downMain Street.\"But officer,\" the man began, \"I can explain.\"\"Just be quiet,\" snapped the officer. \"I\'m going to let you cool your heelsin jail until the chief gets back.\"\"But, officer, I just wanted to say,...\"\"And I said to keep quiet! You\'re going to jail!\"A few hours later the officer looked in on his prisoner and said, \"Lucky foryou that the chief\'s at his daughter\'s wedding. He\'ll be in a good mood whenhe gets back.\"\"Don\'t count on it,\" answered the fellow in the cell. \"I\'m the groom.\"

I dont know whats come over me. Maybe its the pregnancy maybe its this other thing that keeps floating around over my head. Daniel told me a couple of nights ago that he still loved someone else but that he would never leave me.



I grew up knowing that one day my daddy would never return home to me. That one day he will have done what he promised to do when he was eighteen. He would give his life for his country and his family would pay the price. I grew up knowing this in my heart and accepting it. Even when I made the same promise we both accepted it. Maybe I did it because he did it and had never gotten the chance to fulfill that promise or maybe I just did it because I got to comfortable with the fact that he would come home. Whatever it was, he always came home to me just like he said he would. But I still know in my heart that someday he wont and I will be crushed forever.



I dont know how Daniel feels about this other person but I cant help fearing all over again that even though he says he will never leave me, or perhaps because he says he will never leave me that something will change. I know I should trust him on this. I really should. But I cant help wondering.

If he suddenly realized he was in love with this someone else I know I would be okay. But if he decided that even though he felt he should be with this other person, he stuck by me just because of a promise that hew could only keep at the expense of his happiness. Of everyone I know hes the one person who deserves complete happiness the most.

And more than anything else in the world I want him to have it.